freak~~

feel like blogginn these days....but rushing for assigment ,so i m feelin down nowadays!!!hahas:)
spent a little time to BLOG again...>ermm,these day i should feeling better..without any communication,distance keep on maintaining~i reali feel myself cooling down abit!!!!
i know should be impossible to let down all those things in this short period~ so,i wont force myself too much!!!MOod shall be cheer all days long:D
but i hate myself too much,even though he treat me lik tis ...thus i stil manage to choose him a birthday present......by that time,i dun feel like hatting him too much!!!mayb i m insane,have to admit myself are reali an idiot!!!!!
NOW~distance againts us is getting so far.....would it be one day,i will never can approach or even see where our distance??there is no more friends to be or meant between us......hahas,jst like a joke!!!

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BAd day.....

i couldn't believe myself i have spread my feelings toward him.but his response towards me is not care at all.and finally i found out i m just nothing for him.still a transparency object .
at that time,i tell myself insides''not to cry infront of him,GAN YI KEI.''even how cruel his response to me,even how he looks down upon me.....i m ready for that!!!
another misunderstanding from me,i wish to gives hopes to myself ..once and once,i hurt myself deeply when i face the truth of this .everytime i though tis feeling i can maintain it and hide it as well mayb forever until one days end,but i choose to tell him and let things game over.
Another great people who hurts me very well,i hate tis kind of feeling,maybe secret love is not suitable for me anymore......hurting everytime makes me dissapointed and desperate.
thou,i still have to act normal in college mean while,i was cried in my heart.i have no ones can tell,no one's would comfort me.....now i realise i m alone ,i m just nothing ....

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