People see my blogg,will you?u have no choice ,have to read it this time..cuz i'm goin to share u guys a reality story that i come through
In love with a boy,he was my college class mate..i though love is just a very simple thing (for me),maybe he not knowing i like him then thats why i was love inside and never told~things are happen really unpredictable,everythings was just my though~i though he was good to me ,mayb he the right person i looking for.........but actually he own somebody he loved inside,and she is one of my best friend in the college~i was like "WOW" such a big surprise ,but realy hurting inside..
UNTIL he was ignore by the girl, he try to change classes and so m i.That time i don't know how should i face them and outside there is no one's will ever care how i feel,what i feel!!!
While i really trust him he will change class,i was fall in a trap which set by him..he flirting me and so on i have spread my feeling towards him~guess wat,he is no feeling at all like he already expect this could happens...........ok, i already give up on him but at that time we give ourself a cooling time and after this i hopes will be alright~we manage to become just a very "NORMAL FRIEND" as he wish>>BUT things just cant be P.E.A.C.E as u wish!!!!after this there sure have something waiting for u....and now who're the one who create all this?SUCXXXXX
I'm really hurting inside u know?as a friend,or as a people who likes u.....once and once u hurt me ,make me dissapointed Z!!everytime u just know how to blame me,HEYY!!i 'm enough to become a good and nice person to u~!!!!ya,just u is not worth in this world...........i'm don't have any big expectation ,i really wish become a friend in ur part is really enuff!!but how come u jst cant let things go smoothly?If u want to fight againts me,then just come to me.....i WARN U DAMM FUCKER....dun ever try to challege me niama,if u want to talk bad behind me to my friends....I SWEAR this time i wont keep silent.....i didn't fight back,it doesn't mean i have not able to attack~coz i dont want to play as a child like u~once u cant get ur toys,u just spoil it or people offense u~just did some stupid and noob matter to treat them!!!!like what i said~U"RE FUCKIN BRAINLESS Read more...

freak~~

feel like blogginn these days....but rushing for assigment ,so i m feelin down nowadays!!!hahas:)
spent a little time to BLOG again...>ermm,these day i should feeling better..without any communication,distance keep on maintaining~i reali feel myself cooling down abit!!!!
i know should be impossible to let down all those things in this short period~ so,i wont force myself too much!!!MOod shall be cheer all days long:D
but i hate myself too much,even though he treat me lik tis ...thus i stil manage to choose him a birthday present......by that time,i dun feel like hatting him too much!!!mayb i m insane,have to admit myself are reali an idiot!!!!!
NOW~distance againts us is getting so far.....would it be one day,i will never can approach or even see where our distance??there is no more friends to be or meant between us......hahas,jst like a joke!!!

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BAd day.....

i couldn't believe myself i have spread my feelings toward him.but his response towards me is not care at all.and finally i found out i m just nothing for him.still a transparency object .
at that time,i tell myself insides''not to cry infront of him,GAN YI KEI.''even how cruel his response to me,even how he looks down upon me.....i m ready for that!!!
another misunderstanding from me,i wish to gives hopes to myself ..once and once,i hurt myself deeply when i face the truth of this .everytime i though tis feeling i can maintain it and hide it as well mayb forever until one days end,but i choose to tell him and let things game over.
Another great people who hurts me very well,i hate tis kind of feeling,maybe secret love is not suitable for me anymore......hurting everytime makes me dissapointed and desperate.
thou,i still have to act normal in college mean while,i was cried in my heart.i have no ones can tell,no one's would comfort me.....now i realise i m alone ,i m just nothing ....

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Mid autumm FESTIVAL ~woots

playing childhood lantern and candle ,was totally a perfect matching for tis event!!but nowadays US didnt play tis kind of childish GAMES anymore~haissss!!!

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Two is NOT better than ONE!!!!~OK

~mayb two is better than ONE,how suckks is tis !!!
am not totally agreed wif tis ,even a single woman can done many things than a couple....
wifout U ,i stil am i,the world stil the same ..nothing biggg deal gonna change!!!

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我知道，我难过。

我难过，有谁会知道？我在乎的他，会听见吗？”不会！错愕的事实折磨着我，不断的期望换来只是一场徒劳无功的答案，终于你清楚解释出我和你所存在的距离。。原来这不只是距离那么简单，在感情这方面，我永远都是彻彻底底的失败者。。。
唯有沉默，逃避是我唯一的避难所！我天真的以为这样不会再受伤，我错了！好离谱，又造成我人生另一场悲剧的是你！我可以怪谁？归根究底，一开始都只是我一厢情愿，找就现在的我。
也许你并不是我想象的那么简单，即使你那么近，感觉却那么遥不可及。
我真的要求的并不会很多，我只要能够默默维持就好。可是为什么要一而再让我难堪？我心痛却要强颜欢笑，那种惨你能够体谅吗？我已决定慢慢学会放弃，为什么连时间都不给我？我不喜欢一个人需要承担的痛苦，没有人知道，感觉活着的只又我自己！！
你连正眼也不看一看我，便磨夺我的机会
我恨你～

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HAHA~dun take it serious

I 'm not here to criticze and i know i dun have the qualification to criticze...is my ownself problem!!anything i just want to comment to myself is i m being too useless and maybe i got serious problem on my self behavior....hahais
i just blame myself for being too childish and sturborn ,ignorance!!how silly i m....make trust on people and always be the unresponssible 1!!!i cant even endure myself attitude...btw,i m so SUCKS...
people cruel to u,and they wont sympathy u!!human kind born to be an actor..pro than act!!
friends can be a stranger ,stranger can be a friend...but do think so true friends always available??whenever needs,are they willing to be ur side..heard ur senses ,share a words to u??
NO??YES??
how naive i do think so,friend is for trust not to guess!!i tried to putting myself in the lower ground...just to find a place thats not will be hurt anymore~too tiring to being good,sometimes just wants have a space to leave!!


not to appreciate what i have did is ,fine!!i no needs those pity
trick me ,treat me like a what's??oh,is reali fine too!btw,i feel nothing!!im just a doll wif sense nothing at all!!
sia~what u meant to me??is not important anymore,dissapointed is dissapear..everything will finally come to an end....what i fall for u,is just toturing me and make me tear drops again!!
Although i m so in love to u..but chance cant even given!!

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